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Apophenia
01:09
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there's a thousand ways it could happen
there's a million ways it unfolds
dozens of bad ends to get trapped in
can't remember all the rules, i've
seen the promised days
floods of volcanic ashes and stomach acid rain
i've had a hundred fever dreams, i didn't
mean for things to be this way
but somewhere along the way things took a wrong, wrong turn
i didn't wanna go too far
i didn't wanna push too hard
but i've been turned and twisted up
i see it all
i see your voice
i speak your name
i watch you move
i feel your shame
i wiggle hard, but end up
trapped, trapped, trapped, again
didn't wanna fight so hard
i didn't mean to come apart
body trapped, i wasn't built to last
at all
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2. |
Red Flag
02:12
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i am just like rena
the way i can't say sorry enough
i'm starlight glimmer, everybody calling my bluff
so difficult to talk to, i'm frigid like ice
tangled up just like homura, breaking in
another burner timeline
i hope you find me intolerable
i hope this makes you embarrassed to know me at all
i hope you try to get me evicted
dox my grandma and my dog
but it's like
no one can help who they are
if you wanna change it, where the hell would you start?
i'm living trash like komaeda
no one wants to be my friend
but really in my heart i'm like vriska
i don't like, need, any friends
at some point you're gonna wonder where the hell you even are
at some point you're gonna realize that you never even
started to know
what you meant by any of it
lost in the bullshit
transfixed by the image
ip trackers on your kinlist
2014 is endless
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3. |
Skype Call Suicide Pact
02:35
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i'll let it be
what it wants to be
i'll let it do what it wants to do
i'll let it grow into whatever fucked up shape it's gonna grow in
i couldn't stop it even if i still wanted to try
if you want some sun you should go outside
if you want friends you could try getting online
if you wanna be loved don't look to me for advice cause i got none
but mostly you probably won't be getting what you need in time
excess of harshness and coldness, sad to say but
the truth is people can be so unkind
you don't deserve it, there's no way to earn it
can't even touch it, in this life you won't become it
but there's something here stirring, a pain reoccurring
a piece of you moving, and it couldn't be the same again
the threshold you're reaching, evil seals we've been breaching
another hundred years of endless nightmare daydreaming
there's something here stirring, a pain reoccurring
a world of endless change and other weird shit
i want a bitch with brain damage, put her url in tumblthree
i want a skype call suicide pact, a 20 dollar lobotomy
come over and fuck with me
i didn't care before i'm not about to start
put my head back together take my brain apart, don't
take me me seriously please, i don't wanna be weird about it anymore
the truth is everybody wants to be god
wants to change you reshape you wishes they had what you got
it's easy to hate them and it's easy to place blame
but you'd do the same
you don't deserve it
there's no way to earn it
can't even touch it
in this life you won't become it
but there's something here stirring
a pain reoccurring
a piece of you moving
and it couldn't be the same again
the threshold you're reaching
evil seals we've been breaching
another hundred years of endless nightmare daydreaming
there's something here stirring
a pain reoccurring
a world of endless change and other weird shit
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4. |
Rain Hell
03:31
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i catch my breath sitting still again
i sit up straight and watch the world dissolve
i deserve the pieces put together, the fragments
i don't deserve to stand in your presence
i don't deserve to die here in the same house as you
you won't ever understand me, only are what we do
i wanna take your hand again
i wanna tell you that you're not alone this time,
this time
i wanna bow my head to you
press your gentle hand to defeated wound inside
what would you say to me if you had the life left
and you to speak the words i wanna be your heart and soul
your hope, you know
you're still drawn to that evil
push and pull blood like piss
your fucked up wrist
rain hell
live well
we're already rotting away
i feel like sludge in the rain
i feel like pulling you open
i wanna eat all your pain
i wanna dig right through the mantle of your skull
pull apart the crust, burnt to a crisp when i hit
your center of
i wanna take your hand again
i wanna tell you that you're not alone this time
i wanna bow my head to you
press your gentle hand to defeated wound
inside
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5. |
Sea Level
02:46
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i have only been a few centimeters above sea level
counted every star when i fell
years spent in the bottom in the murky deep
it's a secret you don't really need to breathe
practice manners in the mirror do you wanna be my friend
easygoing i'm not knowing i'm not caring how it ends
lobotomize me
all that i need
starstruck
when i first met you
i tried to be cool
but looking back
yeah i see that you knew
in truth it was the first time that i saw a human being
in truth it was the first time that i saw something like me
through all the seizures and migraines and red dye no. 40
something new something shining i can feel within me forming
yeah i know all about your experiences
yeah i know that you are fucking delirious
but i can take it girl no need to be so serious
pull me up you lift me up so i can drag us both home
if i hadn't been doing it it would never get done
nullification dedication a party of one
it's a circle it's forever it's my least favorite shape
already over it's beginning i was on time too late
i don't need it i don't want it
i can't get it won't acknowledge
there ain't nothing left to fuck with
so don't bother
i don't wanna make a big deal out of nothing
so i'm over
all that stupid shit that could've been
brand new pain it's formative
manipulating time and space but falling off the deep end
if our love could be magic then that must mean it's friendship
i wonder what you think of me, what on earth could this feeling mean
isolation easily amputates our humanity
i hope you know what i mean
when i say that this is all i can be
in truth it was the first time that i saw a human being
in truth it was the first time that i had seen something like me
through all the seizures and migraines and red dye no. 40
something new it's something shining i can feel within me forming
if love
could keep us all safe
if anything ever said meant
anything
i wonder how it feels to be so unalone
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