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Jump Cuts
02:36
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(lindsay)
go ahead and let me know if i'm getting out of line,
chronologically speaking,
i know i tend to struggle keeping stories straight and narrow on track
it's been a busy kinda shitty couple decades
and if i'm being honest,
it's pretty easy to let it fall apart in my head
enough with all of that though, let's cut to
the part of the movie that you'll all really remember,
for twelve seconds of last movie night i thought we'd all be friends for life
but everything is moving back and forth
"i am the real me" is not the kind of statement that really means anything
there could be two, or four, or i'm the last one in the world
let's skip to the good part,
nothing good can come from meditating on the past
(ezra)
even now, we're first meeting,
the rooms we spoke in now demolished
i could cry a tear for every stupid comment
you interrupted me to keep making
so funny
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccTPgYKEJ3o)
your light's on. are you recording this?
um. yes?
well don't. it's extremely annoying you filming everything all the time.
i'm an archivist! i'm archiving! this could be an important conversation, it could have repercussions!
(lindsay)
but everything is moving back and forth
"i am the real me" is not the kind of statement that really means anything
there could be two, or four, or i'm the last one in the world
let's skip to the good part,
nothing good can come from meditating on the past
(ezra)
no matter how ready i feel
every time i never could be
"amica, endura"
don't know how you'd all put up with me if i told you that in a billion trillion fucking centuries
i still haven't learned to let shit go
maybe in another life
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2. |
Sweet Like Honey
03:04
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(lindsay)
getting close again isn't this so much fun
what do you mean you've never done this you're doing great
being together is easy just like drawing you in
i hardly have to try to make you love me sweet like honey
don't you want me
by now all this must be so new
i keep getting carried away it just feels so right being here with you
it unfolds almost naturally
speaking casually
pushing boundaries
if you're locked ill find the key
sit a lil closer and ill pour you a drink
i know you're unsure
of what i'm after
sweetspark just wait and see
sweet like honey
sweet like honey
you must love me
sweetspark just wait and see, yeah
it's really not that hard i'm not the type to sit and wait
winning doesn't come so easy sometimes you gotta cheat to play
letting down my guards whatever there's nothing that you could take
you're so easy to control but im really not digging your frame
sweet like honey you must love me
i know you must be desperate
come a little closer that uneasy flutters almost cute
almost
i know you're unsure
of what i'm after
sweetspark just wait and see
it unfolds almost naturally
speaking casually
pushing boundaries
if you're locked ill find the key
sorry if my compliments come off a little backhanded
you deserve more than condescension and how could i lie to a face like that
when i lean closer you move back
i pretend not to notice you'll get used to that
when i lean closer you move back
i pretend not to notice you'll get used to that
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3. |
Life Of The Party
03:01
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(lindsay)
wonder what you think you're lookin for, i've
been staring at you in the corner, all night
meditating on the ways i might, find
another way i could be wasting your, time
you don't gotta worry about me,
too familiar not to speak freely,
is there something i can do
to make you see
it's hard enough just to keep you listening
who could be shocked, another casualty
going through the motions, without noticing
setting down the plot points hitting all the beats
the first two or three reruns almost too easy
who's looking for closure? don't think you'll miss me
sweet ride, comin your way;
no one's gonna guess at what i've got to say
fade into the b plot
a familiar face
another metanarrative you couldn't take
sweet ride, comin your way;
no one's gonna guess at what i've got to say
fade into the b plot
a familiar face
re-colored and re-released, i love it, it’s great!
who would plan to leave a party early?
how could it matter what you're doin in the morning
in between all of your drinking and your flirting
i'll try and draw this sucker out again, how boring
wanna stick around until last call?
never was easy watchin you walk off
spend the post-afterparty walking the halls
since when was "life of the party" a character flaw!?
sweet ride, comin your way;
no one's gonna guess at what i've got to say
fade into the b plot
a familiar face
another metanarrative you couldn't take
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(lindsay)
no variety of eye catching candy could stop my focus on you, like you'd notice you
arrogant obsessive self absorbed, glitch-head,
keep your clueless cyan optics out
of, my, head,
what would you know about the gravity
of half the slag you say to me
the kind of love that could mean anything is
nothing at all to me
don't talk like you know me you just know what you’ve been hearing
people talk about old habits like it could mean a thing
rationality or fairness, love could never make a difference
like anyone else in the world knows what it takes to keep going
arrogant obsessive self absorbed, glitch-head,
what a joke
arrogant obsessive self absorbed, glitch-head,
you're a joke
cyan optics out of, my
if you had survival instincts they'd be telling you to go
this could be bad news and not the kind you're used to
you're not that hard to see through, if you wanna leave then please do,
looking in your direction's not an invitation; it's your exit cue
i could almost say i like the way you stick around
no matter how i test your patience, you're still leaning on me
echo broken algorithms rattle through my head
your tiny tinny little voice a gravitational force
you could never hope to understand how much i'm being
overtaken by this feeling
maintain your distance, please,
but don't you look away from me
maintain your distance, please,
but don't you look away from me
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(lindsay)
mapping out the angle of the drop
with precision
drawing up the variables
practically verifiable predictions of the past
perfect insight has a price
people hate you when you're right
take apart what you know
and reapply it
throw the irons in the fire
a course of action unacceptable
like you’d ever let that stop you
it isn’t like you ever did it for the thanks
cold constructed social pariahs
like yourself
seem to be predestined to becoming something else
put your faith in the servos of another
your mind wanders so you stop
it isn't like you wanted any help
when you get deeper in the wreckage
it gets hard to see
you play better with disinterest and distance
strings to pull commands to give
collecting pawns and losing friends
you didn't have
it's not too bad
they'll thank you after the fact
cold constructed social pariahs
like yourself
seem to be predestined to becoming something else
put your faith in the servos of another
your mind wanders
so you stop
it isn't like you asked for any help
perfect insight has a price
people hate you when you're right
perfect insight has a price
people hate it but you're right
calling in for the kill
won't make a difference
everybody knows who did it
the technicalities mean nothing
but you're above it at this point
take apart what you know and reapply it
take apart what you know and reapply it
throw the irons in the fire keep your irons in the fire
it's the way it's gotta be
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6. |
Clemency
02:11
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(lindsay)
the approach could not feel more wrong to him
but he talks to you with confidence
an absolute creep with that bravado and
something else that makes you wanna knock him out
something in the way he ignores you when you talk, oh,
total asshole what a waste of scrap metal
you wouldn't mind if he never spoke to you again
this shit sucks
this place is dirty
your body hurts
is this creep flirting
with me
maybe that's okay
slimy attention and a little time to play
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7. |
Watch It
02:52
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(ezra)
loss is easy to get lost in
i get it
whatever
i've been torn apart a thousand times
struck down and mangled
get messed up
welded together again
shock value shits cheap
i'm not shooting for it anymore
but at this point it's getting hard to miss
watch out
what about me makes you cringe
watch out
what about me makes you cringe
i know the reason that you flinch when i walk by
hope i don't sound ashamed,
i wouldn't change this pain
pressure in my head
won't go away
nothing in the world
was ever safe
at all
at all
shitty days are a given
fine tuning constructs
with a dexterity that's no longer mine
i've heard healing takes time
reconstructed face and identity
if you want something more from me
make your point brutal so i understand
watch out
what about me makes you cringe
i know the reason that you flinch when i walk by, but
hope i don't sound ashamed,
i wouldn't change this pain
pressure in my head
won't go away
nothing in the world
was ever safe
at all
at all
at all
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8. |
No Chance
02:44
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(ezra)
if you want it you should take it
if you want it you'll become it
if you really understand it
if you are it then you'll love it
looking upwards at a distance,
he's got that self assuredness
hollow-point ego and a head full of plans
overcompensating constantly going too far
twisted up, blown out, trying way too hard
(he was easily spotted and out of place, flashy paintjob dented and scraped but still instantly recognizable. the turbines on his heels click with uneven briskness on the floor of the hall on the way to his quarters.)
it's all about the posture
shrinking away out of a room
or shooting for dominance, and missing
by a longshot
there's no chance of success
you'd be the latest of a billion
if you're telling him that, though
(no one in his line of vision seems willing to meet his optics, and casual conversations pause awkwardly until he's out of sight. if he notices he doesn't let on; the high ranks have no room for weaklings.
does it still count as failure or even humiliation when it's all anyone expects of you?)
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9. |
Towards Peace
03:03
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(lindsay)
conversations stopping one more dead con walking
conversations stopping one more dead con walking
kjnjdgfkdk
a solar cycle and a half before the lost light
would set back down on cybertron
megatron's awake late into the night
locked up in his room
listening thru the doors to the chatter of his friends
what the world will be like after he's gone
it doesn't seem domesticity could ever be much of a problem
of course,
all the evil of the multiverse could not be so easily reversed
with just one death
it's more twisted up than that
conversations stopping,
one more dead con walking
behind the rage for the first time
is there softness in ur eyes?
i see it now
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xg6aiBlbj38)
"i think for the first time in your life, you don't know who you are
miner, poet, guerilla, tyrant, now what?"
but justice is sweetest served
burning in your spark like hell
ambitions, their failed realizations
sounds of laughter echo in from the hall
getting harder to block out
what is there left to think
what could there be to say
almost a new sensation;
wouldn't know to see it
without built-in cannons
when he stands up
he feels flimsy and kinda light
conversations stopping,
one last dead con walking
behind the rage for the first time
is there softness in ur eyes?
i see it now
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10. |
Ornament
02:30
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(both)
dissatisfaction with the form
not an uncommon thing at all
one of those types of pain
often indicating
sickness somewhere else
of course it's not always the case,
it's understood this sickness crops up on its own, too
though such situations are rarer
i don't spend a lot of time anymore
looking at myself in the mirror
i take turns to avoid
thinking about the kind of thing that i am
the kind of thing i might be or become
or might have been
there is no charismatic carelessness, brutal seductive dominance that
could make me anything but whatever i am
from wherever i came
looking down at you all from time immemorial
the love in your sparks is enough to chew up the sun
dont come looking for me
the second first time could never be as sweet
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